Personal Blather!

It's been a pretty hectic week. After the full comm hall run on Thursday, we were all on a high. The run was good. It was the best performance we've had. We all felt it. That was really good. However, things weren't as good on Friday. I think we all felt it. Why can't we maintain the high? I guess that's something we all have to work on.

Went to Little India today, and had nothern indian food. It was pretty good actually. I think the company was good too. All seniors... except Moritz. In any case, I think the food was worth the price! I might just go there again. It's not expensive, only about S$7 or so for a pretty decent meal.

Over the past few days, I've been doing a lot of concert related stuff. I guess that's really the highlight these few days. Luckily I still keep up with all tutorials. Tests aren't all that bad either.

The scholarship I received (read previous post) requires me to share the 'joy and pride of receiving it' to my school. I personally wouldn't mind, but the empty spaces are so ambiguous that I do not know for sure how to fill it in. It's really irritating because I'm not sure whether or not I'll fill it according to what is required.

There isn't really anything else going on that is all that interesting, except maybe that my lecturer is interested in coming for concert. I'll probably reserve two seats for him, but he has yet to get back to me on whether or not he'll need them. Really exciting week ahead! God give me strength!

PRAISE THE LORD!

I've got a good testimony to share! I got my scholarship!!! ^_^ Yes, I'm happy! I'm also grateful for the many blessings that God has given to me. Truly, God will provide for those who love Him. God is truly good. I really really believe in Matthew 6:33!

There is one drawback however. This means that I'm going to be under pressure again. At the very least, I think I can save my parents some money... Hopefully by God's grace, I can make it!

Enough about the scholarship. I'm really worked hard these few days, but I certainly feel a lot better. Personally I prefer comm hall runs compared to normal practice, but it's really taxing for everyone else. The feeling's different, and I think I perform better. In any case, it's really fun, albeit tiring and there is that occasional screams from our directors/producers... I suppose in some cases it's warranted, but I get the feeling the rest of the cast is very pressured. I guess we all need encouragement!

And yes, more on human relations, I realise that sometimes words are so important... more important than the motivation behind them in fact. Saying 'Come on, put in more effort guys!' with the same intention as 'Come on, let's all do this together!' can go down wrong for some people. More complications I guess... and honestly I personally don't mind either, but then again I'm not everyone. I need to constantly remind myself to be more tactful... and that's not easy considering I haven't tried it before. Please, give me some time to work on it and encourage me a little... remind me if any of you have to and please, be patient with me.

Ok, concert coming soon. Have to send my deed Thailand, but I think I'll wait for the scholarship one too so that I can send both together. I don't have a lot of time to do a lot of things, but I'm doing my best. Also, I just finished my report for my Crime Fiction module. In addition, there's a test for my Einstein module coming up. I'll go study for it in a bit. Life is looking up in some areas. I think I'll hold on to them, at least for now!

I'm pretty excited. I think I finally got the answer to my previous post. Here's where I got it from.

2 Tim 2:14-26

The two main points which stood out for me was this:
1) 'But avoid foolish and ignorant disputes, knowing that they generate strife.' (v23) In the NIV version it says, 'Don't have anything to do with foolish and stupid arguments, because you know they produce quarrels. ' I suppose this one really hit home hard. This basically means that my like for being argumentative isn't really something biblical. God help me to change that! I'll try, to overcome it, but again, I don't think it'll come just like that overnight. Support from everyone could help too.

2) 'And the Lord's servant must not quarrel; instead he must be kind to everyone, able to teach, not resentful. Those who oppose him he must gently instruct, in the hope that God will grant them repentance leading them to knowledge of truth, and that they will come to their senses and escape from the trap of the devil, who has taken them captive to do his will.' (v24-26) Now in this verse(s), the main point which stood out to me is v25. Back to my previous post, the main point is being tactful I believe. I admit, I think based on my previous post, and my own evaluation, this is something I need to work a lot on. So like in the previous point, I'll do my best to overcome it, and God willing and with everyone's support, I certainly can and will.

I'm really encouraged by this passage. Today's sermon helped as well. To live in God's abundance, we have to do four things.

1) RENEW my mind Rom 12:2
2) Mix the Word with FAITH Heb 4:2
3) ACT on God's spoken Word Deut 8:1-3 (this point in particular)
4) Put Jesus FIRST in my life Prov 3:9-10

Really praise God for this! Amen!

Long day, but quite fulfilling. Went for my test today, and I scored a measly 19/30. It was totally unexpected. That test was supposed to be a programming test, but they asked definitions of concepts instead of the understanding of their usage and applications. The time constraint didn't help either. I expected at least 25 out of 30... Granted, I was really careless (I got 2 simple ones wrong because I was too flustered and missed it), but I really think it's not something that should've been done as it doesn't really test our ability to program well IMHO. Although many would probably disagree with me. Still, I think I'm entitled to my opinion no?

Yes, it's late. I don't know why but I feel good about cast practice today. More than once I could feel the emotions from the scenes. I guess it's true that when you really throw yourself into it, it really get's you going. It's like an adrenaline rush that keeps coming. I certainly hope I'm not the only person feeling it.

I think the time has finally come where some start getting a little uneasy with others. I really don't think I have anything against anyone. I had a few serious conversations with certain people and I really don't know what to think anymore. I believe I'm the kind of person who is very frank, most of the times brutally so. I usually just say what I mean, even though it may not be very pleasing for others to hear. Some are in the opinion that I shouldn't do that. Is it really wrong to tell a person if you see something wrong? I don't really know. I feel that you need two kinds of people around. One who is always the quiet type and bottles everything up inside and carries on, and the other who just blurts out what sometimes needs to be said. I was kind of struck that someone told me that it was better for me to just keep quiet when I'm unhappy about something. I do agree that sometimes (if not quite often) I say things which are hurtful. But I know and I know and I know that I don't say them with the intention of hurting them or wanting to put them down, even though sometimes it may seem that way. I don't like to keep things inside, so when I feel unhappy or uncomfortable about something, I just say it. Sure, I agree that we have to control our emotions, but sometimes it's not a matter of letting emotions get the better of you, rather I just feel the need to say or do something. I believe I'm a very VERY task oriented person. I don't really think too much about feelings as long as I solve the problem. That could be a negative thing, and I do try to work on it. But then again, is it so wrong to be focused on solving the problems even if sometimes it is overlooking the emotional aspect? Isn't it wrong to be to focused on the emotional aspect that the problem is never addressed and hence never solved? Isn't it also wrong to think that by keeping things inside it works well for everyone?

I personally feel that being told if there's something is wrong with me is better; at least I'd know. Of course, you could say that it's just me and that not everyone can take it being told of their character flaws. So is it the right thing to just let it continue to let it linger and never help that person solve it because they never know there's something wrong? Isn't it the case of when a person sees another in a difficult situation but refuses to do anything as compared to someone who sees it and tries to help that person, even if the help is refused or taken as hostility? Is it wrong to do something to help a person when that person seems not to want it or refuses it but the something may actually be benneficial or even crucial? I really don't know anymore. Just because someone doesn't appear to accept your help but obviously needs it, does it mean we don't? Similarly, just because you think someone may not like it if they're told of a character flaw, does it mean we never point it out to them and help them overcome it? Of course, the way in which we do it is important too, but that isn't what I'm discussing just yet. I can address this another time.

Wow, I wrote quite a bit today. I certainly hope that there are no typos.

I got my band budget proposal done and submitted, and thank goodness for Eng Kiat who helped me with the amp proposal. I think band is really indebted to a lot of seniors this year, especially since I'm new. I'm going to sleep now. Tomorrow is a long day. Night!

Well, I went for my scholarship interview today. It was pretty interesting. I really didn't know what to expect. The interview went smoothly IMHO. Initially I was a little intimidated; largely because I haven't had a formal interview before, but when I stepped into the room, I was pleasantly surprised to find that there was only ONE interviewer. That calmed me down a lot! I took a seat, and it started from there. The interview was supposed to be 10 minutes, but I took longer than that. We had a talk about my background, why I choose to come to Singapore and my plans. I guess I was just truthful and said what I felt. I certainly hope that wasn't a wrong decision...

After the warm ups, I was pretty much on full swing. It was really nice talking to the interviewer. He asked a lot of questions which got me thinking. That was a nice change, I suppose. Furthermore, I found out that he was from Malaysia. I caught a small hint that he could possibly be wondering whether or not to give me the scholarship on the basis on whether I was likely to stay and work in Singapore. I didn't really say no, but I didn't quite agree to that either. Most likely, it'll be a wait and see, and I'm pretty fine with that.

After the interview, I went home, changed and headed straight for dance. Everyone thought I woke up late. >.< I really didn't, so don't give me any sarcastic "good morning, Gerald's." Dance was interesting though. I like the last dance, it's really cute. It's the finale one so I expect it to be somewhat jumpy and happy. Overall, it was pretty fun.

I guess this holidays are really for catching up on work. I've been studying too, got a test tomorrow. All the best to me I guess. Ok, I think I'll go back to work. And I got some feedback about my blog, may make some changes in time to come. Guess it got kinda boring anyhow. A new layout would be good. And no, I do NOT intend to get a flash one... takes too long to load.

Gah... LONG day... Had classes, followed by interview session. It was pretty interesting although I must say that there certainly is a lack of talent. Not saying that everyone who auditioned was bad, but I was certainly hoping for a better level of musical talent. But it turned out OK I guess...

The more pressing matter is the band equipment. They're in pretty bad condition, with all four of the guitars non-functional, I think we're in need of a serious equipment overhaul. There is however, a budget constrain so I guess I'll have to make do with fixing the available amp and two of the guitars. Too bad the Stratocaster™ is probably unsalvagable, or at least it isn't worth the cost. Thank goodness there're people around to help me. Many thanks to Yuhui, EngKiat, James, Boon Yong and all those who helped me out today (sorry if I left out your name... >.<) Hope that you guys will continue to support me. Proposal is due in a week to 2 weeks time.

The next thing is concert. I really feel that I'm below expectation, which is bad... I can't even say my lines without it sounding funny or unnatural. *sigh* I wish I could act better. My pronunciation also leaves much to be desired, but I'll work on it as much as I can. God help me!

I don't really have much left to say. I think it's good when people do think positively about things. I certainly hope I can too, and that I can help others to think the same way. Signing off!

Things have a funny way of happening. So far cast has been really interesting and the occasional stressful periods help add some challenges of the task. But now I have yet another task at hand. I'm 'officially' (needs to be authenticated I believe) the hall band mm. What that means is basically I take care of the band... o.O It's a relatively tall order, but a manageable one I believe. The biggest thing I had in mind was commitement level. However, having a nice talk with the previous band mm, it doesn't seem all THAT difficult and taxing. At the very least, my Friday nights are still free for cell as are my Sundays.

With regards to my previous post, I finally changed the photo. Thank goodness. To those who didn't see the old one... don't worry, you didn't miss much. Still have to work a bit for concert.

I'm trying not to be too 'bridge prone'. It's definitely not at the 'addicted' level. But better not let it get to there before I do something about it. But it IS rather fun and I'm having a relatively slack semester.

Life is quite good. Minus all the 'minor' upsets and letdowns... I certainly wonder why so many people are starting blogs... my sister for one... but that's good. Ok, need to settle stuff. Till next post!

Gah! My photo on cast looks BAAD!!! I wanna change it... gotta talk to publicity people about that... I KNOW i'm not photogenic... but that photo really makes me look like... nevermind...

Church was awesome. Ps Kong really preached a good message about prayer. Elijah was a melancholic ordinary person. The power he had was only because of his prayer. In essence, if you want power of the Holy Spirit, then pray! Amen!

I got cast today. Luckily I already finished my lab assignment and submitted it. Passed everything. Yay!

Hmm, I think I'll go for tea... Nothing much happening... concert is getting closer and well, work, work, work! But it's fun!

Amen!

Today was really exciting. Pastor Kong wasn't around so Pastor Derrick preached the word. The word was good. Initially I really thought it was a word I really needed... It was about hurts in your life. But as I examined myself, I realised that I've already let go of most of the hurt that I experienced. I also checked to see if I was really denying the hurt or hiding it, but I really do not see the instance where I do... If anything, I think I don't really remember things much, especially when it comes to the people around me... That could explain why I don't seem to remember many people's birthdays too...

Prayer is wonderful. It's a time where you spend time just 'talking' to God... And if that's the definition, I believe I do a lot of it. Perhaps not in terms of sitting down and really having what I call 'formal prayer'... I talk to God a lot any time that I can. When I sit to think and contemplate about the day or anything, I always also talk to God. I do admit, most of the time it's complaining... but I guess from cell group I learned that giving thanks IN ALL CIRCUMSTANCES means being grateful no matter how bad the situation may seem (Of course, not being grateful for the situation, but in it) God is really good. Hallelujah!

I managed to complete the props needed for the Malaysian night today. It looks a little funny and the skit itself is a ripoff from my college's International Friendship Day... but I guess under the circumstances it'll have to do.

I managed to setup the unix shell to connect to my SOC unix server. So I can access the unix server from hall... i think i'm beginning to love unix. MS-DOS anyone? I think i'll install Suse Linux into this laptop too... Once I burned off all the music and comics... ^_^

I think that's all for now. GAH! I didn't go for COM-EX... heard the deals were awesome... but, well, wallet isn't very healthy at the moment anyway. Ok, I'll stop here!

It's been a long time, I know...

Life in Singapore has been interesting so far... I'm pretty much up to date withmy tutorials and stuff, but that's only because the lecturers are starting slow and it's just my first sem. I'm thinking it'll become really hectic as time passes...

Top of the list now is of couse concert. To the uninformed, I'm involved in a Hall production called Poppy. CLICKEY I'm one of the cast members and it's not an easy thing to act/sing/dance... However, I believe I can do it. Those around please please PLEASE do come and support me.

God is good. I've been through a rather stressful period this past few weeks but I'm OK now. Classes have been good and I understand most if not all of the lecturers. Hall life is fun, but there ARE some things which I still have my reservations about. Still, that's not really important just yet.

I think that's about all I can think of right now. CONCERT GANBATTE!

As in my previous post, I'm still tired... I wonder why I'm still making this post then... -_-

Today was supposed to be fun... it was. I enjoyed myself... but I couldn't take the grand finale... the foam party was fun, but i was just too pooped to continue. *I probably made an ass of myself too in the process... I'm tired and didn't sleep at ALL last night. I should sleep now, but I just don't quite feel like it. I guess I think I have something to do, but perhaps I don't really...

Nothing much else to post. Spent a day with my parents in the afternoon. Rag day is over so I'm quite happy... No more dance for me... >.<

I'll end here.

Tired is the only word to express how I feel; tired is what my physical body is feeling, tired is what I am of myself, tired of repeating the same mistakes, tired of meeting the same problems and still having difficulty overcoming them, tired of HAVING to face those same problems...

Yes, this is a rant! I guess I'm just majorly dispointed with myself today. For the uninformed, I've been spending the past 2 weeks in NUS Raffles Hall having my orientation. Granted, it was fun, but seriously, these people really know how to tire you out. I'm a few days from my first classes and I haven't really slept much. It's a rare commodity. I hope I can last the next few days, what with float and all...

My parents will be down tomorrow... Meaning I probably get to see them for a couple of hours. I can't really spare all that much time with them. I certainly hope they enjoy themselves.

I have too many things to do and no time to think through what to do or when to do them exactly. The worst part is that classes haven't even started. *sigh* There are many issues I have to handle, but I pray and I pray and I PRAY that I can handle it well and God willing, get it done soon. Dilemmas stink!

I think i've said enough. I really need rest now. I'll see what else I can put up here. Hopefully not too long from now...

Well, another long absence since my last post. Basically nothing much has been happening except that I've got my hostel in NUS and the confirmed date of departure would be 21st of this month. I'm going back to Singapore in under two weeks. I suppose it's about time. Did a lot of processing since I got that confirmation. I think I've more or less given up on the scholarship. If it comes, it'll be a bonus. That way, it makes things a lot easier and less stressful.

I've applied for my visa online. I guess I'm really going to Singapore. No turning back.

My mum is coming down tomorrow. I have to go pick her up. My aunts and grandmother is also coming down tomorrow, so there is no reason for me to go down to Ipoh. My good friend, Tat, is also going to Australia on the 17th so I guess we're all leaving.

I don't really have much left to say. Life is going a bit slow, but I manage to find interesting and beneficial things to do. I don't really have much to say now. Most interesting stuff happen in the forum anyhow. Do come visit if you ever read my blog.

Extremely long weekend but thoroughly enjoyable.

The first highlight was obviously camp. It was excellant! Firstly, I woke up at 430 for morning prayer on Friday night (as usual). After the usual morning prayer, I came home and packed for camp. (Couple of minutes and I was done) I checked with Sky and he said he'd pick me around 1.

So at about 120, his mum came by and picked me to his place. He just got back from college. We headed to church from there. On arrival, there were quite a number of people already there waiting for the bus. It had yet to arrive though, so we occupied ourselves chatting aimlessly. Kevin was a little frustrated because the bus was late. But in the end we boarded pretty OK. I fell asleep in the bus because it rained cats and dogs; It was so cool.

On arrival, we came to Sufes Tapah, a damp little site with lots of grass, trees and little else. There were a couple of buildings littered here and there. Anyway, we unloaded and then I went to register for camp. The one thing that struck me the most about a campus youth camp (my first) was that things were a lot less rigid. I suppose with age, there should be maturity. At least that is expected.

We went to check out our tents. Unfortunately, they were soaked through due to the rain. Luckily it had already stopped and we all tried to dry it as best we could. Then we had ice breaker; Treasure Hunt so to speak. We won, so I'm not complaining. Dinner, which we had to clean up ourselves after (it was fun) and arrival of the next bunch of people. Nothing much for the first day. 2nd day was more interesting. Session 1 followed by lunch and then stream trotting. That was the highlight of the camp, I suppose. Went climbing upstream. It was in our groups, and in a row. The guys were supposed to help the girls, but woe to me, I was the only one who failed in that task. My 'helpee' almost sprained her ankle due to my inadequate guidance. She ended up hobbling all the way holding up the line. So to Annabelle Yeoh, my sincerest apologies, and to everyone else too, it was me who caused the crawl, not her. So we reached the waterfall which was amazing. We slid down it and stuff. Too bad the stay was a little short IMHO.

Heading back, we had a bathe, makan, and then session. Ps Palan squeezed 2 sessions into one. I was surprised at myself that I wasn't a least bit sleepy. Then at the end, we had an all nite session of Mafia, Story telling and Murderer. Thank goodness Joshua Ting was around to ease the boredom. That is one excellant dude to hang out with. We were up till sunrise, and the final session. Then we all packed etc and went home. Most wonderful camp!

Post camp, I was drained, but surprisingly the most I could manage was 11 hours of sleep. I couldn't sleep anymore after that. Monday was interesting. I talked to Ying Yi over dinner about an idea I had, and I certainly hope it comes to pass. I did what I could (which was why I was busy the past few days) and here's the result.

CLICKEY

So that's all I have to say. I'm going to Saisaki later. Wish me luck!

Just a quickie, might go swim in a bit!

Watched Around the World in 80 days. Pretty OK for a Jackie Chan movie... One of his better ones I think, but I was hoping it wouldn't be a movie where one would have to leave one's brains at home. Enjoyable though.

Past couple of days has been fun. Daily morning prayer is really helping me get my sleeping right. At least I don't pig till 12 + unlike some people I know.

Met up with Tho Wei and Cher Chin too. Went mamak. It was pretty cool meeting up again. I'm still appalled at how they managed to squeeze 5 people at the back of my car, AND Tho Wei was in the back. Luckily it was a VERY short distance from Eugene's house to Melur. Talked about our days in Singapore (like that was YEARS ago... )

Camp will be this coming Friday. Post more about it another time.

Uhoh, time to go for my swim. Later!

Long time since my last post. Weekend was pretty awesome. I had to wake up early on Friday morning for practice. I'm backup singing for the Wesley Methodist CF camp. (Which reminds me, I need to memorise lyrics) Practice was quite good. I learned a couple of new songs, so I guess I have to work on them. I also availed myself to help out in the workshop. But lo and behold, now i'm facilitating it (close to conducting it I think) Luckily I have the material for it so it shouldn't be too big a problem. I do have to edit/cut&paste around though. Cell on Friday was interesting. Having combined worship/ice breaker was good. Word was led by Soon Chen instead of Grace, but it was still good. The iron sharpens iron talk was pretty informative. Plus, we had Adrian (he's working...) who gave us an adult's view. Interesting to note that he's also a new christian, but he's more mature then some other long term christians i've seen. It's amazing how far God can take a person with a willing heart.


Yea anyway, after practice I went to IMU to meet up with Sook Meng, Hee Siong and some 'other' people. Only problem was that on arrival, there were no 'other' people. Furthermore, Hee Siong had to lunch with his mum. So I ended up lunching with Sook Meng at Sri Petaling. Chicken rice was pretty much it.

Saturday I had a basketball match. It was pretty intense and was fun too. I don't really know how well I played though, so I won't comment there. Went to church that night as usual, and Ps Daniel really preached his heart out. I guess he really had a burden for the church and it all came out that weekend.

Well, Sunday was occupying. I guess it was better than rotting at home. But going to One Utama and spending a day there with people you hardly know does have it's downsides. It was fun near the end where we played Cranium (even though we lost *humph*) Cranium IS a fun game. My only gripe I suppose is that they should have a Malaysian version or something. Too many USA type questions.

Monday morning marked the start of 14 day fast and prayer. Waking up at 420 every morning is no joke. But it's fulfilling. Unfortunately, unlike everyone else, I have nothing to do in the morning after prayer, so I hit the bed again. It kind of ruins the mood. Did some banking too on Monday. Transferred some money over to my uncle. I broke fast at night with Tat and Chew. Ate quite a bit actually. Thankfully I didn't stuff myself TOO much.

And this morning was pretty much the same as Monday except there was extra luggage in the boot and chocolates as well. Oh, I picked Annabelle to and from prayer too. Lydia went off to the airport at around 7 so it's bye bye Lydia and have fun in the US!

Now I'm home, bored out of my wits, and wondering what to do next. Maybe a book will take me through the rest of today. Cheers.

Had some banking to do yesterday. So went to Maybank and transferred some money to my uncle. It was pretty quick surprisingly.

Nothing really much happened. Most (if not all) important stuff have been done. I think this is gonna be a short note.

Just to give a few people greetings today.

Happy Birthday mum! I love you lots and here's my shout-out to you!

Happy Birthday Jaclynn! Enjoy your holidays!

Happy Birthday YingYi! If you ever read my blog anyway...

My sister is having exams now and is pretty stressed out. I pray and I pray and I pray she'll be fine. All the best in you exams sis!

To everyone else with exams, study hard but don't stress yourselves.

And to those who've finished exams and are in subang/kl area, pls pls pls call me if you have nothing to do. I'm getting bored!

Hah. No, I won't be writing a long script today. No mood and nothing particularly interesting in my mind right now. Maybe next time!

Sorry for long absence of posts. I haven't really encountered anything so far worth blogging about, yet anyway.

Yesterday was, I suppose, an exception. I went to KL, more specifically, Timesquare and Sungai Wang Plaza. Initially, the plan was to play, play and well, play. But somehow we decided against it and went shopping instead. (Can those who know me well imagine me, shopping?) Anyway, I went hunting for PS2 prices (roughly RM580) and Xbox prices (about RM720) I suppose I'm interested in getting a console, but none of them seem to have the same kind of pull to entice me into buying them. The DVD capabilities do have a certain attraction, but that's hardly substantial.

So, me, Sky, Yee Lyn, Lydia, Irene (pronounced IRONY, much to mine) and Kelly (1) were there. We skipped the roller coaster since it costs RM25 per entry per person and we didn't really want to pay that ammount just to ride it. Instead, we spent our time eating. The Teppanyaki restaurant was barely adequate IMHO. We stopped to get pretzels, famous amos cookies, maltose (solid maltose which only Yee Lyn ate I think) and drinks all while shopping in Sungai Wang. The place didn't hold the same kind of thrill I use to have the first time I went there. Probably 'cause I was younger then.

As for dinner was a simple noodles with dumpling combination which tasted pretty good actually.

The one eye opener was that some of us really think alike. I was just surprised to see that Sky would sometimes say the exact thing I was about to say. The most prominent issue was about La La Girls. I suppose I'll give a short comment on this 'phenomenon'.

To MY understanding, a La La Mui (henceforth referred to as LLM) is one who dresses and presents herself in public in such a way that she screams for attention, usually the not so righteous kind. Generally, they imitate fashion from Japan/Korea/HongKong. I suppose there really isn't anything wrong with the fashion, but many people question the need to dress in that manner. The public generally view girls who dress as such as 'loose' and in a manner of speaking, this 'degrades' them. Such views, while may not be entirely right, is what society sees and expects of people. It could be that such dressing is an outright sign of rebellion, but there's also evidence of it being peer pressure. I wouldn't be surprised if these people actually know that they are being frowned upon; they just couldn't care less.

I do also question the right to judge LLMs based on their dressing. It may be wrong to make conclusions about their character based on their dressing. However, first impressions DO count because society is not perfect. The general view of the public is not unimportant or useless. It forms the ideals and thinking of society, and although it may not be entirely right, rebelling against it will only make it difficult for society as a whole to accept an LLM.

Wow, I had a pretty interesting day yesterday...

Jamie came down and is staying with Ben, so they called me up at 1.30 am (i was already asleep... >.<) and we made plans for yesterday. I picked them up at 9.30, sent Ben to IMU (he had classes), Went to Tat's house to spend some time before lunch. It was rather interesting since both Tat and Jamie went MVPing... (RO terms... ignore if you do not know)

Then we went for a drink... but no lunch yet... so me and Jamie went to pick Eugene for lunch. We met Ben at the InC@fe and had lunch there... I took the Shepards pie... (wonder if the name has another meaning... ^_^)

Post lunch, went up for leadership class (well, we were sort of just sitting in while waiting for Ben... ^_^) We got wind of Yee Lyn catching Shrek 2 later, so we all went to join her, even though both me and Jamie have already seen it... it's THAT awesome... ^_^

Went to Pyramid, ate A&W for dinner, watched the super cool movie, came out and we didn't go home yet... ^_^ After Raymond left and we sent Yee Lyn back, we picked LOW Jia En up for supper... Again, I took them to SS15 to meet my other friends, Tat, Chew and Jermaine... ^_^ Post mamak I sent everyone home and myself too... time 11.30 pm. Wonderful day indeed... ^_^

OK... now that THAT's over... on to my long writings... ^_^ I'm tempted to write about my views on Dan Brown's Da Vinci's Code and it's prequel, Angels & Demons, but it's a bit theological and it IS fiction, though it might cause some 'learned' people to have serious reservations about the gospel... Why do I feel Dan Brown's an atheist?

On to my writings. Today's topic is 'Are we ready for a steady relationship?' (Gee, sounds like a sermon... ^_^) I'm guessing everyone between 14 and 20 will be shouting YES! Of couse we are. We can handle it. I love her and she loves me and that's ALL there is to it... isn't it? Maybe, but most 'mature' teens tend to overlook many other aspects of a steady relationship. How do I know? I've been there, many times... >.< Not that I've had a steady relationship, I see now that I probably DIDN'T ever have one because God chose not to give me one... yet... But even then, when I DID look for one, I realise I tended to think of how it would benefit me, how I'd feel so much more secure with her, how I could just be so happy etc. Thank goodness for me I had good teachers. ^_^

I'm being brutally honest. Now that I think about it, most of my past 'loves' were actually infatuations. I don't think that I'm the exception here. I believe most whithin the specified ages actually encounter the same thing, if they can be honest enough to admit it. Almost all (I said ALMOST) relationships in Secondary school don't last past college. Why? First obvious reason is distance. Once we hit college followed by Uni, one if not both parties will choose to study at some institution far from home. The result? Most of the time, both parties will be seperated for a span of say weeks at the least. The occasional few relationships actually survive this distance, but a surprising majority fail, no matter how close they were before the seperation. Those that fail I believe are due to the fact that since it's infatuation, it's not GIVING without expecting returns... thus, when the other party's absent, it gets difficult to obtain whatever it is that sustained the relationship be it security, sense of being needed or otherwise. As such, in all likelihood, long distance can easily destroy a relationship that is NOT based on TRUE LOVE.

Of course, not ALL relationships fail even if they were long distance. Although rare, some people are actually REALLY mature enough for a relationship. This obviously depends on the individual. One such person I can think of is my own sister. Seperated from her boyfriend for the past 3 years, they're still together. I look up to them because of that. Oh, did I mention that they're BOTH past 21 years of age? Not that age is the ultimate factor, but with age comes maturity although not necessarily enough to pursue a relationship. So when are we mature enough? The truth is, I myself don't know... (How's that for being cryptic? ^_^) I sincerely believe I can only trust in God that He will reveal the proper time to me and the right person at the same time. I can't say for sure WHEN someone is mature enough, but I do know that if one IS, one wouldn't be worried about whether or not one HAS a relationship. ^_^

To end, do write your comments on this... haha... Even if you wanna bang me I guess I can't stop you. ^_^ But try to be nice, ok? ^_~

Just a quickie note... I just read the Photoblogging service blogger has just put up and it sounds pretty good... I'm sure ppl like Lydia will enjoy it tremendously... but oh... I think she doesn't use blogger... <_<

LOL

I'm personally thinking of getting it.. Sounds cool to drag and drop pictures straight to my blog with captions. I'll look into it when I get back from cell 'lunch' -_-

Oh, the comments section were a bit buggy... I hope I've fixed it including allowing non-blogger users to post... It's based on posts though, so try to comment based on the particular post. It's not like some other blogs that have a huge list where people just spam... <_<

Ok, I gotta go. I'm gonna do a follow up on my aforementioned issue posts... but not when I'm rushing to meet my cell for erm... 'lunch'... ^_^