Disagreements
Monday, March 31, 2008
Yes, I'm one of those irritating people who like to ask questions to provoke thought. I like to disagree, not because I thrive on dissent, but because I believe disagreeing is a very good way to connect with people. You actually get to know what they really think instead of just 'text-book answers'.
In any case, this article reflects my sentiments on disagreeing.
Opinions matter, because they tell me what you think. I'm not deliberately being disagreeable. I'm not deliberately being mean and wanting to be entirely against you. A conversation where there are no disagreements are boring. Think about it.
A: I think XXX football club is great!
B: Yea, I agree!
A: I think they got great players!
B: You're right.
A: They're absolutely fantastic!
B: Yea, they are.
...
The conversation is totally uninteresting. How can the two of them connect? How can they communicate well?
It doesn't mean that you shouldn't be agreeable. I do have my own opinions. I may actually agree with you and the way you think. However, sometimes, I just play devil's advocate to provoke a response. Sometimes I just try to be disagreeable to get you to state what you really think, and why you think that way.
So if I'm being disagreeable... just remember I'm trying to connect with you.
In any case, this article reflects my sentiments on disagreeing.
Opinions matter, because they tell me what you think. I'm not deliberately being disagreeable. I'm not deliberately being mean and wanting to be entirely against you. A conversation where there are no disagreements are boring. Think about it.
A: I think XXX football club is great!
B: Yea, I agree!
A: I think they got great players!
B: You're right.
A: They're absolutely fantastic!
B: Yea, they are.
...
The conversation is totally uninteresting. How can the two of them connect? How can they communicate well?
It doesn't mean that you shouldn't be agreeable. I do have my own opinions. I may actually agree with you and the way you think. However, sometimes, I just play devil's advocate to provoke a response. Sometimes I just try to be disagreeable to get you to state what you really think, and why you think that way.
So if I'm being disagreeable... just remember I'm trying to connect with you.
Posted by
Gerald
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3/31/2008 07:09:00 PM
Labels: Issues
Double Mindedness
You know how it is. The constant "Should I or should I not..." kind of thoughts which plague every individual. It takes a very strong person, or an idiot, to make such clear and absolute decisions.
Pastor preached about it on Sunday. While this may have just been the introduction to what he actually wanted to tell us, it bears much thought as being lukewarm is exactly what makes people 'ordinary'. Of course, the whole foundation was laid to finally talk about one of the biggest problematic attitudes we have as humans... procrastination.
There are a few things I learned. The story of Samson was interesting as it described how God led him to a place: Mahaneh Dan, between Zorah and Eshtaol. Mahaneh Dan is the place of CHOICE. Zorah literally meant "Hornet's Sting", and Eshtaol referred to the face / will of God. It's always easy to make a choice with your head... of course you know you ought to choose Eshtaol. Unfortunately, we wrestle with our flesh, and it usually wants us to take the easier, self-gratifying way, Zorah.
How does this relate to procrastination? In many ways. Every time we decide we want to do something that is led by God, we ought to do it NOW. If God has called us to serve, then serve Him NOW. Saying "maybe when I have time" is basically making God play second fiddle to your own wants. Putting off tomorrow what you can do today is exactly the basis of procrastination.
We are used to thinking "I'll do it tomorrow for sure..." and we before we know it, a year has passed and that 'tomorrow' still hasn't come. It's the biggest lie the devil uses to keep us from achieving the things God has called us to. We have to make a DECISION, be DEDICATED to it, and DISCIPLINE ourselves to follow through. It's not easy, but it's what makes us strive to succeed.
So double-mindedness is when you think "should I do this now or later..." and then "well, I can afford to take a rest now... I'll do it later..." We're not being very wise because at the end of the day, we make decisions but lack the COMMITMENT. This is something I catch myself doing many times, and I'm still trying to overcome.
Of course, making the RIGHT decision is important too. Only do it when God calls you to, not when you want to. Impulsiveness is not the same as decisiveness... that's just foolishness.
So, I'll complete the things I know I ought to do. I'll write down everything I need to get done and make sure it gets done by the end of April. It's a busy period, and there is a lot to do, but it might just be an opportunity for me to overcome procrastination and adopt a productive habit. I won't do it alone though. I'll need Your help. Thank You.
Pastor preached about it on Sunday. While this may have just been the introduction to what he actually wanted to tell us, it bears much thought as being lukewarm is exactly what makes people 'ordinary'. Of course, the whole foundation was laid to finally talk about one of the biggest problematic attitudes we have as humans... procrastination.
There are a few things I learned. The story of Samson was interesting as it described how God led him to a place: Mahaneh Dan, between Zorah and Eshtaol. Mahaneh Dan is the place of CHOICE. Zorah literally meant "Hornet's Sting", and Eshtaol referred to the face / will of God. It's always easy to make a choice with your head... of course you know you ought to choose Eshtaol. Unfortunately, we wrestle with our flesh, and it usually wants us to take the easier, self-gratifying way, Zorah.
How does this relate to procrastination? In many ways. Every time we decide we want to do something that is led by God, we ought to do it NOW. If God has called us to serve, then serve Him NOW. Saying "maybe when I have time" is basically making God play second fiddle to your own wants. Putting off tomorrow what you can do today is exactly the basis of procrastination.
We are used to thinking "I'll do it tomorrow for sure..." and we before we know it, a year has passed and that 'tomorrow' still hasn't come. It's the biggest lie the devil uses to keep us from achieving the things God has called us to. We have to make a DECISION, be DEDICATED to it, and DISCIPLINE ourselves to follow through. It's not easy, but it's what makes us strive to succeed.
So double-mindedness is when you think "should I do this now or later..." and then "well, I can afford to take a rest now... I'll do it later..." We're not being very wise because at the end of the day, we make decisions but lack the COMMITMENT. This is something I catch myself doing many times, and I'm still trying to overcome.
Of course, making the RIGHT decision is important too. Only do it when God calls you to, not when you want to. Impulsiveness is not the same as decisiveness... that's just foolishness.
So, I'll complete the things I know I ought to do. I'll write down everything I need to get done and make sure it gets done by the end of April. It's a busy period, and there is a lot to do, but it might just be an opportunity for me to overcome procrastination and adopt a productive habit. I won't do it alone though. I'll need Your help. Thank You.
Posted by
Gerald
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3/31/2008 05:40:00 PM
Labels: Revelation
Irony
Thursday, March 27, 2008
Definition: incongruity between the actual result of a sequence of events and the normal or expected result; an outcome of events contrary to what was, or might have been, expected.
It's when you work really hard and you only get negative results.
It's when you don't work hard and you seem to get all the results.
It's when your view of a just and fair world is punctured by the reality that it never is.
It's when life slaps you in the face when things are going great.
It's when you till the land, sow the seeds, care for the crops, but someone else reaps the harvest.
It's when you fight the enemy, and just as you're winning you get struck by an arrow.
It's when you play by all the rules, and not only lose the game, but many other things as well.
It's when you do everything in your power to bless others, only to be cursed yourself.
It's when you try to be the best you can be and have the world call you a hypocrite.
It just makes you wonder if you've missed something.
The world is cruel. Life is unfair. We have to learn to live with and accept that...
I don't think I have the full capacity to do that just yet.
There's only so much I can do. Regardless of how I may dislike, abhor, detest, loathe, despise or hate it, I have to accept the things which I can do nothing about...
I need You...
It's when you work really hard and you only get negative results.
It's when you don't work hard and you seem to get all the results.
It's when your view of a just and fair world is punctured by the reality that it never is.
It's when life slaps you in the face when things are going great.
It's when you till the land, sow the seeds, care for the crops, but someone else reaps the harvest.
It's when you fight the enemy, and just as you're winning you get struck by an arrow.
It's when you play by all the rules, and not only lose the game, but many other things as well.
It's when you do everything in your power to bless others, only to be cursed yourself.
It's when you try to be the best you can be and have the world call you a hypocrite.
It just makes you wonder if you've missed something.
The world is cruel. Life is unfair. We have to learn to live with and accept that...
I don't think I have the full capacity to do that just yet.
There's only so much I can do. Regardless of how I may dislike, abhor, detest, loathe, despise or hate it, I have to accept the things which I can do nothing about...
I need You...
Posted by
Gerald
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3/27/2008 05:57:00 PM
Labels: Personal
The Challenge
Wednesday, March 26, 2008
It's always a challenge to decide to walk on a path which you know may lead to failure. It's difficult enough that the path is narrow, fraught with obstacles and treacherous passes, but to realize that all that effort may count for nothing, or worse, cause you to lose something... it's not easy...
All things worth pursuing come with a price, and it's the weighing of the cost versus the result which helps a person decide. A lot of thought was put into deciding to walk in such a difficult direction, and it was not an impulsive choice. In fact, despite the seemingly unfavourable position, the process in which that decision was made keeps coming to remembrance, and it is the sole source of strength which gives the drive and ability to stay in that place.
Thoughts of throwing in the towel have surfaced more than a few times, and each time it seems so convenient, so much easier, so much better to just yield. Yielding cuts losses, concedes that the prize is out of reach and allows for freedom... but you obviously won't obtain the prize even if it may not actually be out of reach.
How does one tell the difference between perseverance in the face of obstacles and plain stubbornness? It is a question that has been asked before... but a satisfactory answer has yet to be found. Perhaps it requires a leap of faith, to believe that this is the path to take and persevere through regardless of the obstacles. To keep on keeping on even when everything else fails. To look at the prize and focus on it, drawing strength in seeing it with your spirit. In the end, if it turns out right, it would be perseverance. Otherwise, it would be stubbornness.
By hanging the definition on the outcome, it is basically impossible to tell the difference when faced with the dilemma. Thankfully, I have one thing which gives me strength to know the difference...
God's word.
He spoke... in the still small voice... when I cried out to Him... They testify to what I believe is where He wants me to go... and I will follow them, even if they seem to make me stubborn. I will, by faith, take it to be perseverance. I have been encouraged each time I feel down, and I have been helped up each time I fell. Perhaps the final result isn't exactly as I predicted, but the path I am walking, I at least know that I was called to...
Lord, give me the ability do the things I can, the strength to accept the things I can't, and the wisdom to tell the difference.
Breakthrough... or breakdown... I'm fighting for the former... but even if the latter happens, I will declare that I still believe in His word, that this path is where He has ordained me to go...
I have no regrets...
All things worth pursuing come with a price, and it's the weighing of the cost versus the result which helps a person decide. A lot of thought was put into deciding to walk in such a difficult direction, and it was not an impulsive choice. In fact, despite the seemingly unfavourable position, the process in which that decision was made keeps coming to remembrance, and it is the sole source of strength which gives the drive and ability to stay in that place.
Thoughts of throwing in the towel have surfaced more than a few times, and each time it seems so convenient, so much easier, so much better to just yield. Yielding cuts losses, concedes that the prize is out of reach and allows for freedom... but you obviously won't obtain the prize even if it may not actually be out of reach.
How does one tell the difference between perseverance in the face of obstacles and plain stubbornness? It is a question that has been asked before... but a satisfactory answer has yet to be found. Perhaps it requires a leap of faith, to believe that this is the path to take and persevere through regardless of the obstacles. To keep on keeping on even when everything else fails. To look at the prize and focus on it, drawing strength in seeing it with your spirit. In the end, if it turns out right, it would be perseverance. Otherwise, it would be stubbornness.
By hanging the definition on the outcome, it is basically impossible to tell the difference when faced with the dilemma. Thankfully, I have one thing which gives me strength to know the difference...
God's word.
He spoke... in the still small voice... when I cried out to Him... They testify to what I believe is where He wants me to go... and I will follow them, even if they seem to make me stubborn. I will, by faith, take it to be perseverance. I have been encouraged each time I feel down, and I have been helped up each time I fell. Perhaps the final result isn't exactly as I predicted, but the path I am walking, I at least know that I was called to...
Lord, give me the ability do the things I can, the strength to accept the things I can't, and the wisdom to tell the difference.
Breakthrough... or breakdown... I'm fighting for the former... but even if the latter happens, I will declare that I still believe in His word, that this path is where He has ordained me to go...
I have no regrets...
Posted by
Gerald
at
3/26/2008 01:42:00 AM
Labels: Personal, Revelation
Arguments from different perspectives
Sunday, March 23, 2008
I've always liked debates. Up till this day, I'm really thankful to my secondary school English teacher for pulling me and a sizable number of my other classmates into the inter-school debate competition. While it was not perfect, and I'm not that great a debater, I actually learned a lot from that whole episode, particularly about how to tackle arguments.
This article Is a very good read on arguments. Although it technically focuses more on reviews, the points made in the article are poignant for anyone wanting to establish any sort of argument.
People have opinions, whether or not they choose to express it. Sometimes people express them when they're not warranted. Other times, even pleading will not bring it to the surface. These opinions guide our decisions and judgments when reading any article or any conversation. A neutral article is one where we feel stronger about our opinions after we read the article, regardless of whichever side of the fence we were on.
Unfortunately, although some try to be balanced in writing articles or making arguments, their articles and arguments are often taken to be 'either or'. It basically means that to choose a neutral stance, trying to be objective in making an evaluation, would equate to being rejected by both sides. The example given is that when a balanced article praising say, an iPod, which at the same time points out various flaws and areas of improvements is found, Apple fanboys would get upset because the article doesn't praise the product totally. Similarly, detractors of the iPod would deem it equally blasphemous as it seems to sing Apple's praises.
Interestingly, psychological studies have found that in the end, what matters most is the initial opinion of the individual. If I'm pro-iPod, then a 'balanced article' would seem to me to be biased. If I'm anti-iPod, the same article would seem to me to also be biased, but to the other direction. What this means is that in an argument, one would definitely be unhappy whenever conflicting views are presented if one is not entirely neutral, and most people aren't. It matters not that the conflicting view is from a neutral source. The source would be deemed to be biased.
Being neutral is not easy, nor is it particularly rewarding. However, it is a true sign of maturity that one is able to make observations, evaluations and possibly argue from both sides of the fence, judging only when all aspects have been considered, if one is so required. In the end, one has to be very conscious about blindly accusing others of bias, when one is likely to have done the same.
I'd particularly like to quote this:
Perhaps this kind of explains the reasons for fanboyism...
This article Is a very good read on arguments. Although it technically focuses more on reviews, the points made in the article are poignant for anyone wanting to establish any sort of argument.
People have opinions, whether or not they choose to express it. Sometimes people express them when they're not warranted. Other times, even pleading will not bring it to the surface. These opinions guide our decisions and judgments when reading any article or any conversation. A neutral article is one where we feel stronger about our opinions after we read the article, regardless of whichever side of the fence we were on.
Unfortunately, although some try to be balanced in writing articles or making arguments, their articles and arguments are often taken to be 'either or'. It basically means that to choose a neutral stance, trying to be objective in making an evaluation, would equate to being rejected by both sides. The example given is that when a balanced article praising say, an iPod, which at the same time points out various flaws and areas of improvements is found, Apple fanboys would get upset because the article doesn't praise the product totally. Similarly, detractors of the iPod would deem it equally blasphemous as it seems to sing Apple's praises.
Interestingly, psychological studies have found that in the end, what matters most is the initial opinion of the individual. If I'm pro-iPod, then a 'balanced article' would seem to me to be biased. If I'm anti-iPod, the same article would seem to me to also be biased, but to the other direction. What this means is that in an argument, one would definitely be unhappy whenever conflicting views are presented if one is not entirely neutral, and most people aren't. It matters not that the conflicting view is from a neutral source. The source would be deemed to be biased.
Being neutral is not easy, nor is it particularly rewarding. However, it is a true sign of maturity that one is able to make observations, evaluations and possibly argue from both sides of the fence, judging only when all aspects have been considered, if one is so required. In the end, one has to be very conscious about blindly accusing others of bias, when one is likely to have done the same.
I'd particularly like to quote this:
They care little for honest opinion. They want to pick up the paper and see in it a reflection of their own nearly religious zeal for the thing they love. They don't want a review. They want a hagiography.
Perhaps this kind of explains the reasons for fanboyism...
Posted by
Gerald
at
3/23/2008 03:45:00 PM
Labels: Issues
Ubuntu Hardy Heron 8.04 LTS
Saturday, March 22, 2008
So once again, it's coming close to the release of a new version of Ubuntu. They're still staying true to the half-yearly release of distribution upgrades, and based on the beta that's been released so far, it's always getting better and better.
Some of the interesting features of Hardy Heron is the use of Firefox 3.0. It's developmental, but it has already solved one of the most GLARING PROBLEMS with Firefox 2... MEMORY ISSUES! This is a big thing as I still keep lighter web browsers around for quick loads as Firefox, with all it's useful features, is a resource hog. Add the fact that my Firefox is almost never closed as long as my PC is on (which is about well... almost all the time) it can get pretty jerky. Firefox 3 could potentially solve this problem so I'm really looking forward to it!
The second thing that is impressive is the use of the latest Xorg. This means no more tweaking and re-configuring entire Xorg settings just to get my display to my native resolution, and to get Compiz-Fusion to work. Monitor support has never been a problem, but the new Xorg would make configuring it an easier task.
Another interesting feature is Wubi, making this release a very good version of Ubuntu to download and burn and give out to all Windows users. Admittedly, the only reason why I'm still using Windows is because I play games as well, but with programs like PlayOnLinux and the infamous Wine, it's only a matter of time before Ubuntu becomes the default boot for me.
Also, this being an LTS release (LTS standing for Long Term Support), one can expect a relatively higher level of stability.
These are but some of the new things lined up for us in the upcoming release. I'm looking forward to the official release, although the beta looks very promising. Here's to a great new chapter in Ubuntu history!
Some of the interesting features of Hardy Heron is the use of Firefox 3.0. It's developmental, but it has already solved one of the most GLARING PROBLEMS with Firefox 2... MEMORY ISSUES! This is a big thing as I still keep lighter web browsers around for quick loads as Firefox, with all it's useful features, is a resource hog. Add the fact that my Firefox is almost never closed as long as my PC is on (which is about well... almost all the time) it can get pretty jerky. Firefox 3 could potentially solve this problem so I'm really looking forward to it!
The second thing that is impressive is the use of the latest Xorg. This means no more tweaking and re-configuring entire Xorg settings just to get my display to my native resolution, and to get Compiz-Fusion to work. Monitor support has never been a problem, but the new Xorg would make configuring it an easier task.
Another interesting feature is Wubi, making this release a very good version of Ubuntu to download and burn and give out to all Windows users. Admittedly, the only reason why I'm still using Windows is because I play games as well, but with programs like PlayOnLinux and the infamous Wine, it's only a matter of time before Ubuntu becomes the default boot for me.
Also, this being an LTS release (LTS standing for Long Term Support), one can expect a relatively higher level of stability.
These are but some of the new things lined up for us in the upcoming release. I'm looking forward to the official release, although the beta looks very promising. Here's to a great new chapter in Ubuntu history!
Posted by
Gerald
at
3/22/2008 01:50:00 PM
Expectations and disappointments
Friday, March 14, 2008
Note: I made this post somewhere some time back. It's a good time to remember and reflect back on it...
Well, I guess after a high, there's bound to be a drop.
What did you think? What did you expect? That things will work out for you overnight? That the situation will suddenly turn out perfect? That circumstances will just change to the way you want it?
Expectations should be managed well, in that one can't possibly be expecting too much. Still, it's obviously difficult to think otherwise when things seem to be going well. The more expectations one has, the higher the likelihood of the disappointment which may follow. It's important to have them though, because otherwise we won't be striving for anything. The issue is that of balance, but the question is: how much is too much? It all boils down to expectation management.
So the disappointment you face is none other than your own fault. You didn't manage your expectations well enough. You couldn't possibly have hoped for that much. I cannot for the life of me understand why you could even THINK that way. Of course, this regret only happens on hindsight.
Lord, help me make sense of things. Help me understand, and REALLY ACCEPT that although things may have seemed great, there's still really a LONG WAY to go. Teach me PATIENCE, teach me to be OPEN, and most of all, teach me to be MATURE and WISE in handling this matter. Help me keep looking to You, to never grow weary or lose heart, but to rejoice always in ALL circumstances. Into Your hands I commit myself.
Well, I guess after a high, there's bound to be a drop.
What did you think? What did you expect? That things will work out for you overnight? That the situation will suddenly turn out perfect? That circumstances will just change to the way you want it?
Expectations should be managed well, in that one can't possibly be expecting too much. Still, it's obviously difficult to think otherwise when things seem to be going well. The more expectations one has, the higher the likelihood of the disappointment which may follow. It's important to have them though, because otherwise we won't be striving for anything. The issue is that of balance, but the question is: how much is too much? It all boils down to expectation management.
So the disappointment you face is none other than your own fault. You didn't manage your expectations well enough. You couldn't possibly have hoped for that much. I cannot for the life of me understand why you could even THINK that way. Of course, this regret only happens on hindsight.
Lord, help me make sense of things. Help me understand, and REALLY ACCEPT that although things may have seemed great, there's still really a LONG WAY to go. Teach me PATIENCE, teach me to be OPEN, and most of all, teach me to be MATURE and WISE in handling this matter. Help me keep looking to You, to never grow weary or lose heart, but to rejoice always in ALL circumstances. Into Your hands I commit myself.
Posted by
Gerald
at
3/14/2008 11:44:00 PM
Labels: Personal
Of love, giving and serving...
Sunday, March 09, 2008
You can give without loving, but you can't love without giving...
And giving of yourself is serving...
Thus you can serve without loving, but you cannot love without serving...
So do what you can, when you can, how you can, for the people that you care for...
Not even expecting anything in return although you may hope for it...
For such is the attitude of one who truly loves...
Not judging by mere feelings...
But by the decisions one makes...
And giving of yourself is serving...
Thus you can serve without loving, but you cannot love without serving...
So do what you can, when you can, how you can, for the people that you care for...
Not even expecting anything in return although you may hope for it...
For such is the attitude of one who truly loves...
Not judging by mere feelings...
But by the decisions one makes...
Posted by
Gerald
at
3/09/2008 06:19:00 PM
Labels: Personal, Revelation
Knocking on doors
Monday, March 03, 2008
"Ask, and it shall be given to you; seek, and you will find; knock, and it will be opened to you.
Matt 7:7
Behold, I stand at the door and knock. If anyone hears My voice and opens the door, I will come in to him and dine with him, and he with Me.
Rev 3:20
We are not asked to just stand outside the door and wait, hoping that it will magically open for us. We are instead asked to knock, to take an action to gain the attention of the person on the other side of the door. We HEAR His voice when he knocks, so His word is also important.
Holding on to Your word...
Posted by
Gerald
at
3/03/2008 02:04:00 PM
Labels: Revelation
Undesired Outcome
Wednesday, February 27, 2008
I guess I never expected to be in this position so soon...
Thinking about it though, it's not all bad... in a way, it DOES reflect how I wanted things to be... with the exception of one thing...
Perception.
I never expected it to be positive at this point. The whole point was to allow an opportunity to make a difference. I think I DO have that opportunity, and I'll do my best to make it count... In the end, I know what should be done... and I'll do just that. I have no expectations, just a desire to follow God's word, and I think that's enough.
Posted by
Gerald
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2/27/2008 12:16:00 PM
Labels: Personal
Status
Monday, February 25, 2008
Tired, and a little sick...
My nose seems to be acting up again. Haven't been getting enough sleep and that's not good. Feeling weak too...
At least my finger's out of the splint... but it still hurts to stretch the joint, and I still need to do it.
Maybe physiotherapy will help...
Finger and then ankle... next is heart...?
My nose seems to be acting up again. Haven't been getting enough sleep and that's not good. Feeling weak too...
At least my finger's out of the splint... but it still hurts to stretch the joint, and I still need to do it.
Maybe physiotherapy will help...
Finger and then ankle... next is heart...?
Posted by
Gerald
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2/25/2008 10:28:00 PM
Labels: Personal
Discouraged
Tuesday, February 19, 2008
I'm feeling a bit discouraged now...
A sprained ankle two days before the finals is not something to be happy about. It might just be God's way of telling me to let it go...
I was really unsure about wanting to play. I've been fighting my finger injury and was close to coming out, but I was worried all along that it may not have been something God would've wanted me to do. At this point though, I've gotten a very clear answer from Him, so at least the decision has been made.
Still, I'm going to have to hold my head up. It's disappointing, and I feel really wished things were different. I really wished that I didn't have to face such trials... but it seems aiming for something great will always be littered with obstacles to overcome, and this one's just a bit too much for me. I just hope that in other areas that are God ordained, I can overcome the difficulties by His grace.
A sprained ankle two days before the finals is not something to be happy about. It might just be God's way of telling me to let it go...
I was really unsure about wanting to play. I've been fighting my finger injury and was close to coming out, but I was worried all along that it may not have been something God would've wanted me to do. At this point though, I've gotten a very clear answer from Him, so at least the decision has been made.
Still, I'm going to have to hold my head up. It's disappointing, and I feel really wished things were different. I really wished that I didn't have to face such trials... but it seems aiming for something great will always be littered with obstacles to overcome, and this one's just a bit too much for me. I just hope that in other areas that are God ordained, I can overcome the difficulties by His grace.
Posted by
Gerald
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2/19/2008 12:26:00 PM
Labels: Personal
To Fight or not to Fight
Monday, February 04, 2008
There are some things in life worth pursuing, worth fighting for... Fighting will involve the element of risk, the possibility of losing. Getting hurt would definitely be part of the process.
So we often have to look at circumstances, to weigh and judge if the result is worth the risk. Sometimes, the prize seems to be very precious, but even so, the cost may be too great.
We make decisions based on our life priorities, that's a given. I used to wonder why some people can seem so unwise, to be willing to risk their future for a moment of glory, but when faced with the same decision, I cannot truly say I would definitely make the right decision. I KNOW for a fact that at the end of the day, it's just a stupid 1 hour match. I KNOW that after that match I'm going to look back and think "Why the hell did we go through so much just to play that one game?" My head tells me that I ought to know what to decide, to do that which is wise. But still I'm faced with the question yet again: Am I willing to put my future on the line for a short moment of 'glory'? The rational part of me is saying "don't be stupid!", but another part of me says "you only live life once, so go do it!"
I'd like to think I'm the kind of person who would go all out for something I believed in. If I'm thoroughly convinced that God's will is for me to excel in this area, and I have passion for it, I think I'd be willing to give up a lot to get it done. Unfortunately, in this one instance, I'm not so sure what God's will is... true, He asked us to excel, but He also told us to be wise, and I'm not so sure if choosing to be this reckless is considered 'wise'.
I guess in the end, I did choose to fight for it. I'll once again do my part and pray for God to do His. I positioned myself the best I knew how to make things as favorable for me to play, but it seems it just couldn't happen. Now I don't know if I still have the opportunity, but God willing, I think I can try!
The biggest question I have is this: Is having this attitude glorifying God? I really believe that if it does, then I can trust in His protection. Otherwise I'm just running on my own strength. Being reckless can hardly be something God would want us to be... but I doubt He'd want us to be people who weren't willing to step out in faith either.
So to fight, or not to fight... I'm going to FIGHT if it's where I believe You want me to go, where I believe You're leading me, where I believe You're directing me to go. I think this is one area I might consider fighting for instead of drawing back. I'm just waiting for You to reveal Your will, and I believe I'll see it through the doors that You open for me... or don't open. Thank You.
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Doctor says...
Thursday, January 31, 2008
So I've been visiting my doctor very often lately. After two X-rays and many consultations, he referred me to a specialist, who promptly told me that I'd better put my finger back on a splint for another 6 weeks.
If it doesn't heal, I'll have to go for surgery.
That woke me up. It's no longer a small problem. He asked if I was fine with how the finger was... and I told him no. My left finger is important for me to type. If I'm going to be working with computers as much as I think I am, there's no doubt that this is going to be a problem.
The biggest worry for me though, is that I play the guitar, and without this finger functioning perfectly (as it is, I can't fully bend it) I can no longer play. The specialist told me that if it doesn't heal the second time around, I would have to operate if I ever want to play the guitar again.
Father I believe that You are the God who heals, so I ask that in Jesus' name, bring healing to my finger that I may function fully again. I believe in Your healing.
Thanks to everyone who's praying for me.
If it doesn't heal, I'll have to go for surgery.
That woke me up. It's no longer a small problem. He asked if I was fine with how the finger was... and I told him no. My left finger is important for me to type. If I'm going to be working with computers as much as I think I am, there's no doubt that this is going to be a problem.
The biggest worry for me though, is that I play the guitar, and without this finger functioning perfectly (as it is, I can't fully bend it) I can no longer play. The specialist told me that if it doesn't heal the second time around, I would have to operate if I ever want to play the guitar again.
Father I believe that You are the God who heals, so I ask that in Jesus' name, bring healing to my finger that I may function fully again. I believe in Your healing.
Thanks to everyone who's praying for me.
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1/31/2008 03:39:00 PM
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Cognitive Dissonance
Tuesday, January 29, 2008
Definition: The feeling of uncomfortable tension which comes from holding two conflicting thoughts in the mind at the same time.
"A double minded man is unstable in all his ways." - James 1:8
Knowing something in your head, is not the same as accepting something in your spirit. One can listen to a sermon or teaching and accept that it's a good teaching in one's head, but fail utterly to internalize it and accept it in one's spirit. This is what Jesus meant when He explained the parable of the sower. Some seed (the word) fell onto stony ground, and these are the people who listen to the word and accept it with joy, but the word does not take root, because it does not penetrate into the spirit. When tribulation comes, it withers because there is no root.
Being doubtful and indecisive is torturous. There are many times when I don't know which way seems the 'right' way. Most decisions you make in life are in fact not clear cut black and white, but always in shades of gray. So many times I've made decisions without thinking things through and regretted it later. On hindsight, they were not very wise decisions. Yet when we try to factor in too many considerations, we end up becoming immobilized, unable to make any conclusion. This is the source of doubtfulness and indecisiveness.
Thankfully, I believe that in these decisions, He will guide us through. Again, it's not that walking the path He asks you to will be all rosy, but knowing that this is what He wants gives me strength even when things don't seem to be going well.
I believe I've done my best, and will continue doing it. I have no regrets and will focus to keep doing that... and whatever happens, happens.
"A double minded man is unstable in all his ways." - James 1:8
Knowing something in your head, is not the same as accepting something in your spirit. One can listen to a sermon or teaching and accept that it's a good teaching in one's head, but fail utterly to internalize it and accept it in one's spirit. This is what Jesus meant when He explained the parable of the sower. Some seed (the word) fell onto stony ground, and these are the people who listen to the word and accept it with joy, but the word does not take root, because it does not penetrate into the spirit. When tribulation comes, it withers because there is no root.
Being doubtful and indecisive is torturous. There are many times when I don't know which way seems the 'right' way. Most decisions you make in life are in fact not clear cut black and white, but always in shades of gray. So many times I've made decisions without thinking things through and regretted it later. On hindsight, they were not very wise decisions. Yet when we try to factor in too many considerations, we end up becoming immobilized, unable to make any conclusion. This is the source of doubtfulness and indecisiveness.
Thankfully, I believe that in these decisions, He will guide us through. Again, it's not that walking the path He asks you to will be all rosy, but knowing that this is what He wants gives me strength even when things don't seem to be going well.
I believe I've done my best, and will continue doing it. I have no regrets and will focus to keep doing that... and whatever happens, happens.
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1/29/2008 01:00:00 PM
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Looking for...
Saturday, January 26, 2008
... open doors. Unfortunately, I'm thinking I don't have that kind of luxury...
It can get frustrating when you try to do your best in whatever area it is, but end up seeing what is seemingly a fruitless venture. It's tough when putting in your best effort, believing for SOME (even if it's small) success leads only to disappointment.
Hope has always been something everyone clings on to despite facing hardships, for without it we'd all wither, crumble and give in. How do you tell the difference between stubbornly refusing to let go of something which you probably should, from standing firm, persevering and riding the storm? It's a question I've asked many times.
I guess the closest I have to finding the answer, is knowing that if you follow God's directions, and the hope is from Him, then you should persevere until you breakthrough. Otherwise, you're just acting on your own strength and not standing by His words.
I believe in what He says, not that everything will definitely turn out smoothly just because He revealed His word to me, but that in the end, this is the path He has asked me to walk... and I will walk it to the best of my ability, relying on His strength and direction every step of the way.
It can get frustrating when you try to do your best in whatever area it is, but end up seeing what is seemingly a fruitless venture. It's tough when putting in your best effort, believing for SOME (even if it's small) success leads only to disappointment.
Hope has always been something everyone clings on to despite facing hardships, for without it we'd all wither, crumble and give in. How do you tell the difference between stubbornly refusing to let go of something which you probably should, from standing firm, persevering and riding the storm? It's a question I've asked many times.
I guess the closest I have to finding the answer, is knowing that if you follow God's directions, and the hope is from Him, then you should persevere until you breakthrough. Otherwise, you're just acting on your own strength and not standing by His words.
I believe in what He says, not that everything will definitely turn out smoothly just because He revealed His word to me, but that in the end, this is the path He has asked me to walk... and I will walk it to the best of my ability, relying on His strength and direction every step of the way.
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Waiting for the dust to settle
Wednesday, January 16, 2008
Sometimes, things happen that you really can't say much about... You don't have any control over them so the only thing you can do is sit at the sidelines and watch...
Now it seems that this sideline at least, is getting cramped. Please don't get injured anymore.
With so many things happening, it's best to just wait for the dust to settle before doing anything... rash decisions now can be very detrimental...
Now it seems that this sideline at least, is getting cramped. Please don't get injured anymore.
With so many things happening, it's best to just wait for the dust to settle before doing anything... rash decisions now can be very detrimental...
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Final semester jitters
Friday, January 11, 2008
The last semester of my student life is about to begin this coming Monday. I really don't want it to come, because I know it will zip by me and before I know it I'll be graduating.
I really enjoy university life and I don't want to leave it so soon!
In any case, there really isn't much of a choice. The transition can be frightening, but at the same time, exciting! I don't know for sure what's going to happen, but I do know that I'll be entering a new phase in my life, and a very important one at that.
So what are the things I'd like to do before I graduate? I don't really know. I guess I really ought to spend more time with the people around, and cherish the friendships I've got because there won't be a lot of time in the future. Many things will be done for the 'last time', and I guess I really DO want to make this year as memorable as possible. Last year ended really well for me, but I'm believing that this year will be even better.
Working on my goals for this year and realizing that some of the things are pretty achievable, but others would be difficult to achieve to the point it can seem a little unrealistic... or rather, I'd need a lot of FAITH to attain it. No reason not to aim high though.
Four years in university and it's down to the last semester. Here's to a great final few months in school. Maybe some miracles may happen to make it even more memorable... ^_^
I really enjoy university life and I don't want to leave it so soon!
In any case, there really isn't much of a choice. The transition can be frightening, but at the same time, exciting! I don't know for sure what's going to happen, but I do know that I'll be entering a new phase in my life, and a very important one at that.
So what are the things I'd like to do before I graduate? I don't really know. I guess I really ought to spend more time with the people around, and cherish the friendships I've got because there won't be a lot of time in the future. Many things will be done for the 'last time', and I guess I really DO want to make this year as memorable as possible. Last year ended really well for me, but I'm believing that this year will be even better.
Working on my goals for this year and realizing that some of the things are pretty achievable, but others would be difficult to achieve to the point it can seem a little unrealistic... or rather, I'd need a lot of FAITH to attain it. No reason not to aim high though.
Four years in university and it's down to the last semester. Here's to a great final few months in school. Maybe some miracles may happen to make it even more memorable... ^_^
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1/11/2008 09:26:00 PM
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Focusing on goals
Sunday, January 06, 2008
The sermon today talked about focus, about how our goals have to be Specific, Measurable, come with an Action plan, Realistic, have a Time frame, be planned with Expectation management and with Revelation, or SMARTER. This sermon is pretty standard stuff, but pastor added some new parts to it at the end.
We need goals so that we can focus on them, to have a place to concentrate our energy on. The opposite of focus, is DISTRACTION! So pastor was sharing about some of the things we mustn't do.
1) Don't get distracted by INTERIM SUCCESSES John 3:22
Jesus was focussed on his calling, not on the seeming success of his baptism ministry.
2) Don't get distracted by COMPETITION John 21:17-22
Regardless of what your rivals are doing, focus your energy on achieving your goal.
3) Don't get distracted by the PAIN OF LIFE Heb 12:1-2
Always keep your eyes on the important thing.
I was really encouraged by it. Now it's time I penned down all my goals.
Oh, trip back to KL was fun, tiring but pretty enjoyable I guess...
We need goals so that we can focus on them, to have a place to concentrate our energy on. The opposite of focus, is DISTRACTION! So pastor was sharing about some of the things we mustn't do.
1) Don't get distracted by INTERIM SUCCESSES John 3:22
Jesus was focussed on his calling, not on the seeming success of his baptism ministry.
2) Don't get distracted by COMPETITION John 21:17-22
Regardless of what your rivals are doing, focus your energy on achieving your goal.
3) Don't get distracted by the PAIN OF LIFE Heb 12:1-2
Always keep your eyes on the important thing.
I was really encouraged by it. Now it's time I penned down all my goals.
Oh, trip back to KL was fun, tiring but pretty enjoyable I guess...
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1/06/2008 02:55:00 PM
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Christmas
Friday, December 28, 2007
I haven't blogged about my Christmas so here's a little something.
I must say it was quite nice spending it with the family. I don't really see them all that much, so I think it's very nice that I could spend some time with them. Christmas was a simple occasion for us. We went for service, which was actually really good, and then had a simple lunch, in preparation for a heavy dinner. The turkey was humongous, and we couldn't even finish half of it.
I learned that my sister and brother in law cook quite well. I also learned that the things they cook were very simple and didn't require as much preparations as the usual Chinese cuisine my mother is used to making. It's amazing what a little olive oil and balsamic vinegar can do to make cooking so easy. I guess I should learn a bit more. Bad thing about staying in hostels is that you never actually get a full kitchen to experiment.
In any case, although I didn't get any presents, which I'm actually perfectly fine with, it was a really swell Christmas for me. Let's not forget that Christmas isn't just about celebrating, drinking, christmas trees and lights, but always about loving, giving and sharing!
I must say it was quite nice spending it with the family. I don't really see them all that much, so I think it's very nice that I could spend some time with them. Christmas was a simple occasion for us. We went for service, which was actually really good, and then had a simple lunch, in preparation for a heavy dinner. The turkey was humongous, and we couldn't even finish half of it.
I learned that my sister and brother in law cook quite well. I also learned that the things they cook were very simple and didn't require as much preparations as the usual Chinese cuisine my mother is used to making. It's amazing what a little olive oil and balsamic vinegar can do to make cooking so easy. I guess I should learn a bit more. Bad thing about staying in hostels is that you never actually get a full kitchen to experiment.
In any case, although I didn't get any presents, which I'm actually perfectly fine with, it was a really swell Christmas for me. Let's not forget that Christmas isn't just about celebrating, drinking, christmas trees and lights, but always about loving, giving and sharing!
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12/28/2007 05:35:00 PM
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